Lack of Something

Alamak... Kecoh sey tagboard... Okay first of all, I wanna apologise for not updating this blog of mine for a very long time. I got a little bit lazy la. Well maybe not a little bit. Haa. Secondly, I'm gonna skip the Hari Raya Aildilfitri Celebration update. So if you were looking forward to it, then too bad, i guess. Okay, thirdly it's already the 31st of October and I still don't know what to update about, but there's this malay girl who suggested I post pictures instead, so here, enjoy!

Fei Hua

Hey, xin nian kuai le. Wo xian zai men you qian mai cheng gei ni. Xia ge li bai zai mai gei ni. Wo de fu mu jin nian zhuo gong. Ni yao lai wo jia ye mei you hong bao na.
Xi wang ni neng xiang shou ni de jia qi hai you xin nian kuai le. Haa, bye!

Nothing Special?

1.15pm - I was on my way to the mosque to perform my Friday prayers when Hassan actually reminded me that it was my friend's birthday yesterday! I was so damn shocked when I heard that and straight away developed this special feeling of guilt inside of me for not remembering his birthday. Gosh. How terrible could I be...? We all went out yesterday and no one actually wished him or surprised him with a cake or even showered him with presents. Gosh. How did he feel...?

Actually I know that his birthday is just around the corner but it just slipped out of my mind. It's already 21st of October already. Like they always say, better late then never, right? But the fact that it wouldn't be special anymore for him is like... phwoargh... Takkan I wanna say, "Eh if you were born one day late, I think I'd be on time sey. Sorry ah." Sheesh!.

But seriously, I think my little heart skipped a beat after what Hassan told me. Shit... What I'm thinking now is actually to organize a birthday party or something or maybe buy him a new billabong cap, which he always wanted, or maybe buy him a new watch from Adidas, or maybe a Top Man shirt with cool designs and nice cuttings, or maybe even a pair of street soccer shoes. Macham tak sah sey kalau tak belikan ape-ape. Sigh...

5.58pm – I went to check out the date to know what month was it. So it's October and guess what else did I find out? I found out that Hassan made a big mistake!! Yesterday wasn't the 20th! Today is the 20th! And today is his birthday! And I'm not late after all! Phew! But hey... I still haven’t got him anything yet. So I guess he'll just have to wait till I save up my allowance or something.

Maybe I sound like a faggot ah but we’re like brothers ah. Okay now I sound like Hafiz. Haa! (I don’t think he’ll be reading this). It’s just gonna be a simple token of appreciation la for being there for me, most of the time. Yeah, like we always say to each other last time, "Ape erti nye kawan...?"

Oh and hey, I’m sorry for the suspense, alright?

Speechless For The First Time

Bad Days

Three bad things happened today and I don't want to talk about it... ):

Hey but thanks to my classmates, especially Sathia, I was actually really smiley today! Wee!

"Mistaken" by Save Ferris

There's no joy without the pain
It's the pain that makes us strong
But sometimes it's just so hard to carry on
When you said that you don't care
When you say that you'll be there
Well, I wonder just how did things go so wrong
With everything we've had
Oh please tell me
And you know it's just so sad
But who's to blame?

I know I can't run to you again
Cuz' you would only run away
I guess there's nothing I can do to make you stay
You said that you would never leave
A lie you told and I believed
And now you want to go and throw this all away
So what is happening here?
Oh please tell me
It's exactly as I feared
You're just the same, and

As I blame myself again
Wondering what I did
You tell me that you still might care for me
You say you're just confused
But that's really no excuse
You don't get sympathy
Cuz' I don't need this mindtrip,
I must be myself
Must free myself from you
And all you put me through

I was mistaken
So who were you?
I thought I knew?
I guess I was mistaken
But I only wanted you
I was mistaken
So say goodbye
Don't tell me why
I guess I was mistaken

Cuz' I only wanted you

Shalih: Back To School

Hey hey hey! Look who's back with pictures below! Haa. Okay so lets not waste time and get on with it. Holidays are over, school has already started and guess what? I checked out my timetable for this new semester and found out that I have night classes on Mondays. Well that only means one thing, going back home at 9.30pm every Monday! Argh! Goodbye late night Sunday sleeps, but hey, at least it's not that bad knowing that there's no classes on the next day, so... wee!

Okay my first tutorial lesson of the day, which was on Thermofluids, was like so damn boring, but I kept eyeing on the tutor's laptop because it has this touch-screen feature which is like so damn cool. Then into the 43rd minute of the turorial, I don't know but I just feel like giving the tutor a free lip job. Haa! I was looking at his lips all the way throughout the tutorial as he mumbles away. It's like... a bit distracting to me la. The laptop as well! Okay, that's it, I'ma steal it one day. Haa! Tsk! Shalih, Shalih...

So next, after the turorial, I had this Metrology & Quality Control lecture and phwoargh... I think I find the lecturer quite cute despite of her age. Haa, and guess what type of pants was she wearing?! Hee!

Okay I seriously need to figure out what to do on Tuesdays now.........

What's Going On?

White, white, white, white, white, white, white, white, white and white... Plates, plates, plates, plates, plates, plates, plates, plates, plates and plates... Urgh.
I've been dreaming of white plates lately so this goes to show you that I have to stop working as a banquet waitress, I mean like seriously. I'd really love to work somewhere where the work loves me and banquet waitressing is not one of them.

Anyways, I've worked hard and earned quite a lot so I'm happy in away. Yeah but i was really dissappointed when i remembered that she has a curfew so I won't get to break fast with her. Sigh. Nevertheless, I'm looking forward to see her. Smiles...

Moral strength. So, what is moral strength? It's funny, I used to think it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds, basically being a fucking good boy but lately I've been seeing it differently. Now I think moral strength's about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world and when you find her, you fight for her (or work for her). You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it, and maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean (like handling beers). You know what? It doesn't matter because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth the squeeze. That's what moral strength's all about.

Missing

Okay so I lied about the last painting of the month bla bla bla. NOW this is the last painting of the month... and it's dedicated to her. The one doesn't know how to take care of a flower. Haa. Oh and you know, since the start of the holidays, I've stopped posting photographs so in other words, I miss Azhar's camera phone...

Know Me Better Like Aquilah

Okay la, Aquilah asked me to do this painless enneagram test, online and here are the results. I'll highlight to you by bolding the most accurate parts okay? And Aquilah will italics the parts as well. I'm letting her because she knows me better. Haa... (But hey, if you don't feel like reading, just scroll down to skip to the my painting.)

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The Peacemaker
"I am at peace"
Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me:
If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
Ask me questions to help me get clear.
Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
Let me know you like what I've done or said. Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Peacemaker:
being nonjudgmental and accepting
caring for and being concerned about others
being able to relax and have a good time
knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a Peacemaker:
being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
being confused about what I really want
caring too much about what others will think of me
not being listened to or taken seriously

Peacemakers as Children Often:
feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
tune out a lot, especially when others argue
are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Peacemakers as Parents:
are supportive, kind, and warm
are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

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Anyways, I'm lacking of creativity these days. Guess this will be my last painting for the month. Yeah, so sad, I know...

A Lil' Less Conversation, A Lil' More Painting Please

I'm back with a new blog layout which I prefer so very much. White, unsullied and pure. Hope it'll push me on to update frequently. Haa. Anyways, I don't know about you but I've noticed that my Windows Paintings are improving and Shaq69 is starting to be a gallery. Hmmm, are you thinking what I'm thinking? Shit, I felt like a banana in pajamas...

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahearghhh...

Baju Sepasang Pada Hari Raya

I was resting on my bed when Nini climbed up on to me. She looked at me and I looked at her and then she smiled.

"So why are you smiling?" I asked her.

"Oh nothing really," she replied. She then glanced down and rubbed my belly with her right foot as she held her hands behind her back.

"Come on, out with it." I persuaded her.

"Well, Hari Raya Aidilfitri is coming soon and I was just thinking the other day that since you don't have a girlfriend, erm, would you like to wear the same colour as me this year?" she asked while glacing down still.

"Hahaha! Nini, Nini... You're so cute la. Hmm, okay sure! Why not? So what colour are you wearing?" I asked with a polite smile.

"Blue!" shouted Nini with joy. "...and Shalih?"

"Yeah?" I answered.

"A week ago when we went to Geylang Serai, I happened to notice your face while you were looking at this couple set of baju rayas and you looked pretty sad. Why?" Nini asked.

"Hmm..."

Rakan Tiga

Azhar kata, sekarang sudah menjadi trend baru keluar berpasangan dengan perempuan yang bertudung.
Shalih kata, tidak, keluar berpasangan ataupun yang dipanggil dating sudah menjadi popular sekarang dan perempuan yang bertudung pun hendak mencubainya.
Noor kata, tidak, tidak, sekarang sudah ramai perempuan memakai tudung, alhamdulillah.
Apa kata awak?

Goodbye AC Milan

Early in the wee hours of the morning (5.47am), I was already talking to two of my Primary School friends, Nurul and Idil. Haa still the same la these two, visually, really.

I'm already starting to feel the boredom... I want school to start now! Now please!

Anyways, yesterday was my last day at AC Milan. I'm gonna miss the rest of the players. I brought some souvenirs back from Italy, including my profile at the team's official website. Sigh... ):

Tag Board
yin: Alamak, my mind isn't quite dirty as you think it is, okay?? OKAY?? YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO VISIT MY BLOG NO MORE! Haa just kidding...

Another Dream??

You want me to share with you another dream of mine I had yesterday? Okay here goes. The Singapore Police Force are recruiting teenagers who have experience in extreme sports like skateboarding, aggressive inline skating and BMX stunt riding. Sometimes they say, fight fire with fire, so the job of these young and extreme police officers are mainly to deal with younger criminals and in my dream, the place where we live, there are a lot of infamous gangs of youngsters and they're dangerous.

And guess what? I was the Sergeant la, leading the pack of the aggressive inline skaters. Haha! Then the next thing I knew was patrolling in this neighbourhood with 2 of my partners which happened to rookies on the job. ):

As we were skating around, I happened to spot this skater skating with a baseball bat so I told the rookies to follow close to me to sneak up on that guy and that guy happened to led all three of us into an ambush. We were surrounded by one of the dangerous gangs in town. The rookies were like shitting in their pants already la (Okay that's just a figure of speech).

So I told them to follow close to me still. I took out my baton and force our way out my hitting the surrounding gangster. After getting through, we made a run for it back to the HQ and the gangsters(not all of them) were on our tail chasing us with baseball bats and spanners la. The rookies were so slow! And they're being attacked from behind so I told them to skate infront of me while bringing some of the gangster down with my baton. It's was a tiring chase. We were outnumbered la. When I manage to see a glimpse of the HQ, that's when I woke up!

The best part that I like was during the chase where we all did a lot of stunts like 360 degrees spins, frontlips grinds and etc. Haa.