Lovers And Shits

The fireworks today at the Singapore Fireworks Festival (SFF) was really cool. I was quite excited after seing the finale! There were so many fireworks being set off at the same time, bringing brightness to the entire dark sky together with smokes and noises. Really it was spectacular. I've seen so many other fireworks too in my life. They're mostly National Day ones and I mostly see them on television too. Haa but the last I've seen besides this year's SFF was last year's National Day's and that was live. At that time I was still attached. I watched it outside Marina Square together with her. It was spectacular as well... So then I've completely realised that standing behind Hanafee and his girlfriend during the fireworks was a really bad idea. Really. And Click's romantic moments was just as bad. That's right. I've watched Click.


After some scenes, I felt so empty and out of place. It's been awhile since I last feel that way. Click's definetely not a show to watch with your friends. It's a show that you have to watch with someone that you love and seeing Paul Newman (Adam Sandler) having a lovely wife and wonderful kids made me more aware that I used to have something great like that once. Really it was a shitty feeling. A feeling that made you want to hold somebody's hand gently tight just to show you've still got the love in the cinema but fortunately, it all went away after Mubarak came to meet us guys in the end, right after the movie. It went away but I became a little moody. So that's why, guys. Sorry. Well cheers to Mubarak. Sigh. I hate relationships. Therefore I cannot accept relationships now. You may say that I'm not ready for one yet. In a way, that can be true. Well the only way for me to fancy relationships again is... I'm gonna have to keep this to myself, I'm sorry and I'll just have to stop dating because now I seriously think that it's time and money consuming at the moment, because at the moment, I want to stay single.


God dammit! Why do you have to remind me of her exactly, Kate Beckinsale?? Urgh. So much for forever and ever, babe.